What was it like writing the song?
The day after I met Alex, I wrote lyrics in the Uber to the studio. It went so smooth, which is crazy, because when I make music by myself, it takes me quite a while, and I work on it so much that I get blocked, because I’ve listened to it too much that I’ve lost the beauty of it. I’d lose what I’d loved about the song in the first place. But when we were working together — I think because I wasn’t the only person working — it was such an exciting process. I wasn’t the only one who had to care about every detail. Splitting the job was incredible.
The process was really inspiring, and I felt like Alex was really listening to all my suggestions and was really cooperative. It wasn’t him coming in and doing his own thing and me doing my own thing. We both produced it together. Obviously, he was the main guy on deck, but I felt really safe and respected with him — which was really great, considering there’s a lot of ego in the industry.
What’s the story behind the lyrics?
I just started writing phrases and things I had on my mind. Sometimes, when you start talking to someone and they’re really hot and cold, you’re not sure what their intentions are, but they’re so hot that you pursue it anyway. That’s what the song’s about. Even though you don’t know what their deal is, you’re like, “I want to do this anyway. I’m not gonna chase you, but let’s get together.”
And the instrumental worked out really well with the overall vibe of the lyrics. Did you know the instrumental before you started writing?
Not at all. I just wrote in the cab, “I’m not gonna run, I’m not here to chase,” brought it to the studio, and we made the sound around it. I’m really happy it all connected together and that it wasn’t that serious [laughs]. I like how catchy it ended being, and how silly it became. Because, at the moment, I’m a bit tired of music that’s too serious. I’m having a little cheeky, goofy moment.
Everyone needs to lighten up a little bit.
These last few years especially have been so intense. For me, coming out of the pandemic has been even harder than the pandemic itself. It’s a really long process, getting back to the way things were. I’ve had to do a lot of self-work and readjust my life. So, I just want to have fun!
The whole thing sounds like when you meet someone in the club, and you’re like, “I don’t want to invest too much energy in this, but you’re hot, so I’m gonna follow you to the bathroom.”
Exactly. And we’re only human. You can be well aware that someone is bad for you, but sometimes they’re so hot that you pretend not to see it, or you just give it a shot anyway. I’m also a proud person; it’s like saying, “I’m not gonna chase you, but it would be fun if we managed to get together.”
You were in Vegas for the music video, yeah?
Yeah! I’m really good friends with Actual Objects, Rick and Claire. And after we made the track, Alex and I went for dinner with them. They made an old video of mine, “Notoriously Fast,” and when we finally got the green light from the label, I was like, “They have to make the video.” And a while back, they’d promised to take me to Vegas, because I’d never been. So I took this gig on a Tuesday — it was a tiny gig, it was called “Techno Taco Tuesday.” There were like 80 people there, and I barely made enough for transport. But I had an excuse to go to Vegas, and Rick and Claire were there with me, and we made the video, real DIY style. Another friend of theirs, Peri, was also in Vegas with her boyfriend. Peri is one of the best stylists out there — she and her boyfriend are actually extras in the video. But she helped with the styling, and it just came about like this really friendly thing. My only regret is that I was sober at the time. I’m back to drinking a bit, but being in Vegas when I’m absolutely stick-in-the-butt sober — it was very challenging. It was me at my most introverted. I wish I was able to have a little cocktail, but we still made it work.
And on the way back, we went to Joshua Tree where we rented one of those shitty motel rooms — and this one was inspired by a cave, so there were all those hanging rock things — how do you call them?
Stalagmites? Stalactites? I remember watching that part of the video being like, “What fucking cave are you guys in?”
No cave, just this shitty motel in Joshua Tree. And when we went there, they were so excited to have us. The owners of the motel were like, “Oh, you’re shooting! What is it?” And we were like, “It’s a music video!” And they were like, “That’s so nice. We usually just have porn being shot here!”
The rooms were cave and forest-themed, and there were dead cockroaches everywhere. At one point, they wanted me to get in the bathtub, but I wasn’t sure, because there were so many dead roaches in there. We had to pick them up before we filled up the bathtub. God, imagine actually spending the night there, it’s probably really unsanitary. But it was amazing — really fun — I just wouldn’t sleep there.
And I can’t imagine wanting to have sex in a roachy room… Not to kinkshame or whatever.
Especially when you could just go into nature.
But I feel like the bug problem would be the same.
Maybe. To each their own [laughs]. But it’s kind of like with music, everyone’s interested in other things, and there’s space for all of us in this world.