What's your favorite app out of like all social media?
That's like asking me, "what's your favorite drug?" Like, let me tell you which one I'm most addicted to. How about we do that? First, it's TikTok, and then it goes to Instagram. Twitter is like, Twitter is like— what's that drink called? A Four Loko. Like you know, you'll have fun, but you'll have the worst hangover the next day.
It's because you can't really leave it alone! It's like, once you're scrolling you'll end up doing it for four hours!
Twitter is an app that's like, "so do you want to panic? Have self doubt or hate on somebody today?"
Then, you'll end up doing all three at the same time. You'll find yourself in the comment section arguing with someone from Kentucky about a topic that isn't even about you! Here's my next question, as a lot of your teen hood or life has been documented online, what are some things you feel people don't know about you?
That I am an amazing writer. A lot of my friends say that I'm a poet when I read the my journal entries to be honest, and that I have way more to say when I'm not screaming than when I am. The internet is so based on our attention spans and getting the attention quickly that the louder I am, the quicker you'll listen. If you listen to me when I'm talking in a normal tone, I'll have much more to say. So, I feel that I'm actually a long form type of content creator that's been put in a short form world to which I have way more to say than people know. Except for just jokes, I can shoot a joke but I can speak a nice little paragraph.
Even though you've been put into short form, would you just want to go against the grain and force your audience to start to see you in more long form?
Oh, that's what I'm doing right now. Like, I literally just got my streaming setup, because t I don't leave my house, since I'm sober. And I love saying I'm sober, it makes me feel so much better than the bitches that literally get fucked up every day, like it really does. Anyway, I have my whole setup in the next room. And right now I'm working on my podcast. I just got a trademark and everything, it's called Public Indecency. So, I'm creating to replace different long form types of content, just the reason I've never done it is because I will not half-ass anything. I will sit and wait until I know I can give it my full attention and capabilities. So like, now I'm finally doing it. But yeah, they're (the audience) getting forced, they're getting forced to go to long form. I'm not making a YouTube. I'm not becoming a YouTuber. Fuck no, no, no, no, no,
I think you can skip over that phase.
Mama can skip over because she's been making and creating content since thirteen-fourteen. I'm twenty-two now, enough time to just speak and let the content create itself.
Truthfully, what are the topics that you'd want to have for your podcast?
I feel—you know, who really ate with their concept? Good luck, Charlie. When the day was explained, and then the takeaway from the day? You know, I mean, like, just going through and explaining what happened in my day, or what's happened in my life, in my career, my friendships and my family life, what I've taken away from it, how I've coped with it, how life affects me as a young adult. And just like little tips and tricks on how to not kill yourself every day because mama used to be depressed, anorexic, bulimic, you know? Like, I really used to just be out of my mind. And I found a way to come back into reality and just show my audience that it's possible, and that life is worth living. And it can be fun. You can laugh at the absurdity of life without feeling defeated by it. And just give hope in the podcast with a little laugh on the side.
I think it's important to know that others have a safe space within you to be like, this is someone who's usually out like outwardly laughing, but it's like, here's some like real topics that are happening.
And I could take this podcast idea and bring it to a big production thing and like, get a whole deal for the podcast. But I haven't done any of that because I feel like mental health hasn't been stigmatized, it's been commodified. And to de-stigmatize mental health, it has to get really ugly into like—the true ugly side of that shit. And I feel, the more honest I am with how I dealt with my life, and what I've done, is better. And sometimes it's not ad-friendly, but it's true. At the end of the day, I'm not trying to be like, I'm the mental health girl with mental health tricks. I'm not trying to commodify it. I'm just trying to be like, here's the part of my whole existence as a young adult, and it's okay to be a part of it.