Hey Paul, you know what, I was reading a book about masochism. It's the book I showed you, and there are three books, actually. The one I read is about 1,000 pages big. It's mostly about the writer of Venus in Furs, Leopold von Sacher-Masoch. And a lot of different writers write an essay on masochism. I wish you could read it. It's super interesting.
It’s only in German?
Yes, it’s only in German. It doesn't exist in English. But it's a very interesting collection. Also, in the other book, there are so many images, so interesting and so profound. I'm still very occupied with the same sort of questions. When I was very young, around 16, I discovered Dostoyevsky, and since then, I never really recovered. I always end up going back to Dostoyevsky.
In the book about masochism, they end up with Dostoyevsky, too. With his essence that the way to the highest, purest form of virtue mostly leads through the darkest, most difficult way of sin. And I really understand Marquis De Sade in the same form of spirit. He often positions the innocence next to the aggressivity, and I think art is often always about those two energies; purity and aggressivity, beauty and Beastiality.
The physicality within masochism, the essence of the body.
Pain.
A&E and Night Vater are connected, they’re a diptych.
I think A&E is more innocent.
It's a form, but there's something more innocent in the characters, right?
Not just the characters, but as a whole piece of art, the whole thought is higher than The Night Porter; it’s its own creation.
I think that they are related to one another in a number of ways, subjects. Both give out. You are constantly moving the moment into something. I see myself watching at times simply stunned. There are two of us. What comes out of us as we do it, and what we feel as we do it – what we become. There’s an addiction to doing it, a drug and a release. It is a state of mind. And also the infliction of existence. That's the attempt to go into that and to somehow make an image of that. It's making the image of existence and the confliction of it, which is why the discussion of masochism or suffering is in there.
And there lies the addiction? When I was inside that tree for the photoshoot the other night, it was very dark and super cold and raining, and we had already shot the whole day — then it came to the last picture, me naked inside that big oak tree. I was a little scared because it was so cold, but all of sudden, I felt so protected and so sublime. It was interesting. Maybe everything that we do, and what a lot of art deals with, is the attempt to return inside the mother’s body. Maybe death is the only moment where we kind of realize that? When we become raw material.
When I saw the image of you in the tree, I thought Lilith is making an image, the attempt, the effort at the image, using what is there.