What have you been up to?
Aidan Noell— We played some festivals and shows on the West Coast and Europe, which feels like a lifetime ago.
Ian Devaney— We were in Germany, then Poland, flew from there to San Francisco and did some West Coast festivals. There's this Baltimore show, then we have iNDIEPLAZA at Rockefeller Center put on by Rough Trade, the record shop. It’s an outdoor show, there’s a ton of bands, it’s going to be fun.
When you're not on the road, is there something you all love to do together? Aside from making music...
ID— I feel like as soon as we get off the road, we're all just pedal to the metal, always working or mixing something new. But when we're on the road...
AN— We really like eating, going to restaurants together, shopping together
Alex MacKay— We have a lot of common interests. We share music, podcasts, books, all that stuff.
Being on the road is sort of a liminal space in and of itself — you spend a lot of time in-between destinations. Does that allow you any creative freedom?
AN— We try to make the most out of the time that we have on the road, seeing things in-between cities or exploring the town we’re in. I always bring two books and say that I’m finally going to read, and then I get in the van and immediately I’m just sleeping, listening to music, and zoning out for hours at a time.
AM— Yeah, I like to tell myself that I can focus in the van to a similar degree, but it's definitely not true. I've been trying to crack that code a little bit, because we've been on the road around four months a year, and that's like — a third of my waking hours. So if I have other interests or relationships, I need to find a way to actively nurture those while I'm on tour.
ID— I kind of look forward to letting my brain brain off on the road. Because this time when we’re working on new songs — it feels like the busiest and hardest work — making sure the songs are fully thought out the first time you hit the stage with them.
AM— There’s the writing stage, when you’re in the world of ideas, which is fun. Although, if you have choice anxiety, like I do, there’s something very challenging about that sometimes. But then you’re in the recording phase, the world of technology. And finally, you're on the road, back in the physical world and its straightforwardness.
ID— At that point, you get to achieve the flow state in the live performance. That’s the ideal each night, to lose yourself in it.
AM— That's what I think is somewhat liberating when you’ve been stuck in the other two phases for a long time. Now, all we have to do is the thing. We know what the songs are. The real magic of performing — if there is such a thing — takes place when you've internalized everything, and then you start to focus what's happening energetically in the room.
AN— The goal really is to lock in with eachother — become the machine together, let yourself give up all of the thoughts going through your head.
Totally. That makes me think of bands like the Ramones — even if you don't listen to or understand the lyrics, you're still experiencing a profound rush of energy when you see them live together.
ID— They’re also a great example of a band that practiced so much. They would play their whole set backstage before they went on stage, so that when they went on, it was like they'd already done it.
I really love the imagery that’s been a part of the Strange Disciple lead up; it's so absurd, very in tune with our day-to-day. How did you figure out how you wanted to visually translate the sonic message of the record?
ID— Up until this record, all of the design work has just been me, even though I have no training in it. Thankfully, I knew that I wanted the vibe of the band to be rooted in a kind of minimalism — which was convenient because I couldn't do anything more than that. For this record, I wrote the song “Sole Obsession” and there was this line about a strange disciple in it, which felt like a title that could unite the project. Because so much of it is about obsession. It felt like a strange disciple represented what we become when we’re infatuated with someone and tie ourselves in knots.
A friend of ours connected us with the artist Christian Little, who collaborated with us on the painting on the album cover. It came together in a very cool and natural way.
AN— It’s also funny because the disciple's pose on the cover — it's basically an exact outline of Ian's hands. Ian had this very specific vision of the person in the house, so we took a picture of his hands and sent it to Christian. It's his hands, and several people have gotten them tattooed on their bodies.
The record makes me think about a book I've read a few times, Eros the Bittersweet by Anne Carson. She talks about desire and infatuation as a circumstance of proximity. Obsession as the distance between yourself and the thing you desire, and how shortening that distance until it’s gone depletes the initial infatuation — she paints obsession as a feeling that always exists outside of and adjacent to you.
AM— Yeah, she talks about the ice that melts in your hand.
Exactly. So, how did obsession become the thematic element of the project? Was it something realized subconsciously?
ID— When I sit down to write, I want to take myself to places where I have been feeling the most, in my own life and what I’ve witnessed in my friends’ lives. And I guess I must have really been on a mental kick about the times in life when you want something so bad — whether or not it's good for you to want it. Basically being between agony and ecstasy...
It's like you exist between death and salvation when you’re obsessed with something. It’ll either kill you or fulfill you.
ID— Yeah, exactly.
AM— That’s what I should've gotten you for your birthday, Eros the Bittersweet.
Aidan Noell— I did just get an Anne book because I'm obsessed with volcanoes.
Autobiography of Red?
AN— Yes, and I’m also reading a Susan Sontag book called The Volcano Lover, which is a historical fiction book, which is not something I’ve ever read by her — any fiction at all. It’s this beautiful love story that gets twisted in all directions around Mount Etna in the 1700s. It feels so much about yearning, love and these intense, fiery emotions, which aligns perfectly with the phase that we’re currently in.
ID— The thing that I like about yearning, and in particular, unrequited yearning — is that there’s almost a joy in the pain. It's the most alive you can feel because you’re feeling so much and that in itself is such a beautiful thing — to know that you are so alive, even if you’re also having an intense emotional experience. It makes you realize how profoundly you exist.