Even when Mattie mentioned “reincarnations,” I think about the implications of being able to cultivate the self while also having to combat the self-censorship that comes with simply existing in the world today. If you had to give verbal form to the stages of reincarnation you’ve been through, can you?
Mattie– I feel like when we became friends at NYU, that was a big thing for us. I grew up Mormon and was always interested in fashion but was definitely surveilled by my community and family about how I was dressing and it was all about modesty for women. I was always very sexualized in one way but then was part of this religion so I received a lot of mixed messages on top of the mixed messages you already receive simply being a woman. Meeting Amanda was definitely a breakthrough moment and it represented having and finding this shared language of expressing ourselves through clothing. We were also in school at a time when people weren’t into clothing in the same way so we were very much in our own world.
Amanda– I’m just thinking of reincarnation in terms of our careers, social media and online presence and I feel like people feel less flexibility in their careers or image because you get pigeon-holed into being one version of yourself. From when we've met until now, we've always been interested in evolving, in doing different things and we’ve never been limited to just one thing. The vintage store is a reincarnation in some ways, we didn’t shy away from doing it for fear of distilling the message or vision etc.
Mattie– We wouldn’t be able to do our own line and art practice without doing the vintage store, there’s no way. Up to this point, we have always been self-funded. Every single fashion show we did while we were simultaneously working a day job, making little to nothing. We're really excited to do a new collection which we're working towards for September, but looking back at all the work that we've made up to this point, it’s just so insane. We were doing it off-calendar and in our own way, but still, it was just totally unsustainable. Now we're able to have this dream be a reality because of the store.
Amanda– And it helps us with our other creative ambitions by creating a more feasible plan for the future and a way to do everything. The way social media is and how people are conditioned now, people seemingly don't think in that way and feel as if you have to just do one thing, one craft, one medium, but sometimes you have to go naturally with what seems to work with where you’re at.
Right and it always depends on whose lens you're looking through. In curating the vintage selections and having an eye for that, how does that play into the design of the collections?
Mattie– We made a mini-collection when we did a film last year but we haven't shown a runway collection since before COVID which was before we started the vintage store. Shopping and having this kind of unofficial archive and collection of things has always been a part of how we design. Our favorite pieces will inform how we want to make a pattern so it’s definitely related.
Amanda– Even the name came from us talking about our ‘museum” which was our clothes, like back in 2014. Everyone has an archive now so it’s more of a contrived concept but we’ve always been informed by vintage and things that have happened, which I mean every designer is, but there’s more of an acknowledgement of that in our process and the way we work.
Mattie– Also back to your question about reincarnation, I feel like both of us or all of us can only keep that many clothes when you live in New York due to the space so we've gone through so many iterations of purging our closets. Even when we were still in school with little to no closet space, we were obsessed with it being our archive or museum.
I’m a person who gets very attached to things so even if I’m not wearing something, I can’t get rid of it. Outside of buying and selling, what are your own relationships to having to say goodbye?
Mattie– I definitely keep more stuff but I still don't have that much stuff. Amanda is somebody who's much more like, okay, that identity is in the trash, I'm going with this other thing now. It's interesting because when you shed a skin and get a new palette that you're into and a new collection of things, there’s still a thread through your style. It won't necessarily be apparent at first, but looking back, there's still trajectory and continuity to it.
Amanda– Yeah I’m much more temporal and less sentimental, I need space to be in a new headspace and maybe it’s a reaction to how my parents are as they keep a lot of stuff. There's something weird with me where I'm like, it has to go. I'm someone who dresses like a cartoon character where I’ll wear the same rotation of outfits for a year, so when I've worn that to death it’s done. It’s like a horcrux that embodies a job, a relationship, a time where you’re like I don't want to be in that space anymore.