Something Like A Phenomenon
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Where do you feel most creative?
I feel most creative by myself, away from the city, with very few people. It’s taken me years to realize there are only a few people I can work comfortably with. The most creative I’ve been in the last six months has been when I’ve gone to Pennsylvania with my close friends. We get a lot done, as far as getting in touch with one another, getting in tune with one another, and being able to communicate better.
When did you fall in love with music?
I fell in love with music very early. My parents met in a church choir; some would say I was born to sing. My mom forced me to audition for this middle school called Mark Twain, that was for the gifted and talented or whatever, but you had to audition for middle school out here in New York. I wanted to be an athletics talent or drama talent, but she forced me to audition as a vocalist. I made it, and that would be the beginning of my classical training as a vocalist. Before then I had wanted to play the piano and my mom made me play the violin,which I played from age 3 until 9. That was the beginning of my music career, but I hated it. I got so much anxiety from performing.
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How did you get into streaming video games?
By falling in love with basketball. Long story short: I was in the ER for three days and they played the All-Star game three times on one of those days. I had more stats memorized than I even knew what to do with. So, I started telling the drunk guys that were coming into the ER what was going to happen in the game before it happened and convinced them that I was a basketball psychic. From there, I wouldn’t look at or talk about basketball for about two months, until I met a kid in Florida that was obsessed with NBA 2K. I would watch him play and realized that I knew more player’s names than I thought. I finally played with him once, and I lost really bad. Fast forward to that following summer, and I’m watching bubble basketball - when the NBA went to Disney World because of the pandemic - because it’s the only thing on TV. And I realized I was in love with something. I became obsessed. The moment the season ended, and LeBron James won his fourth ring, I bought 2K.
If you could only play one video game for the rest of your life, what would it be?
League of Legends... There’s so much to learn. I know people that have been playing for ten years, and they are still trying to get better. There’s just always room to improve. I started playing recently; I’m a noob but I’m working to get better. If I had to pick a game to play for the rest of my life it would be this game for that reason.
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What are some rituals before you perform?
I pace a lot. I do a lot of breathing. I’m late to soundcheck.
That’s interesting.
Um yeah, for a while I was bringing the video games on stage with me. One thing I’d always do is pray. No seriously, like for something to happen beyond what I had planned for. A big part of my sets was trying to improvise all the time. No matter who I was performing with, I was always trying to find some space to get that form of expression in. I don’t practice enough but I would practice on stage.
You started a podcast with VFiles, how did that come about?
It started when I applied for their grant. That was during the end of 2020, beginning of 2021. My whole plan was to roll out a project on a music video’s budget. They really believed in me. They still do. That project has yet to come out, but I think we built something in 2022 that is even more expansive than we anticipated. I’ve done music all my life, but I am finding new forms of inspiration because I am surrounded by such a variety of diverse creatives. Bringing them together in any capacity brings me joy, and this podcast is the platform through which I’ve been finding new ways to do so.
What do you talk about on the podcast?
It’s everything. The past couple of conversations we’ve had have been focused on the visual arts, gallery spaces, the similarities between that industry and the music industry. The idea is to have a rotation of community leaders, performance artists, visual artists, and musicians. We want to invite people to witness how music can be made at any point and time, anywhere. I came to VFILES with the idea of making a show out of everything that I like to do when I’m not working on my music. I want to create a forum for anyone with a story to share it, and I’m grateful VFILES has given us their platform to have these conversations.
What are you manifesting now?
The success of this show. It feels like a rebirth, it feels like a second chance to do what I always wanted to do. Put people on who I think are creative and give people a space for them to do what they want, talk about what they want. I always felt like I was trying to sell people on an idea that didn’t exist, and now it exists in a way I didn’t imagine it would.
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What cartoon world would you choose to live in for a week?
Hmm. My mind is going to horrible places right now. The first place my mind went to was, Hey Arnold but I don’t want to fuck anybody in Hey Arnold. Maybe a show full of adults.
But I like Hey Arnold for you.
I like Hey Arnold for me too; I think that would be crazy. I know exactly what my character would be.
What was the first record you ever bought or was gifted?
It was either a BB King Best-Of CD; or it was John Legend’s debut album. But I think before that I got a John Mayer CD, ‘Room for Squares’ from my best friend’s mom.
What was it like growing up in Brooklyn for you?
It was a beautiful time, getting to be a part of so many cultures. All my friends are from different places. Brooklyn is different. I was a church going mix kid. I was confusing and confused. Like my cousins were from the South, I’d go there every summer and every Christmas, whether it was Maryland, Atlanta, or North Carolina. I’d get into my athletic bag or be able to watch MTV - because my parents were super strict. That’s where I’d be able to play NBA 2K and I would suck. But I’d get back to New York and I was that kid in the gifted and talented program that you can beat up on. I’ve dealt with my bullies early on in life. Now, wherever I go I try to change the culture a little bit, Brooklyn gives you the opportunity to do that every day.
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Do you remember the last gift you gave someone?
I gave my dad a Barbra Streisand record for either Father’s Day or Christmas.
I can tell you are very much into classic music.
Yeah, I love the divas. My dad is into all of it, so I’ve heard all of it.
Do you usually bring your weed and video games everywhere you go?
Almost everywhere. The PS4 was a security blanket for a while, I’ve calmed down with it since I started live-streaming. Weed is a thing I like to keep on me. The basketball and basketball sneakers have become the starter pack as well. And some form of change of clothes, charcoal toothpaste and toothbrush.
Song: Left 4 Read - Julian Soto (prod. Devin England)
Anything upcoming you want people to know about?
Yup! Catch us at Ryan Bock’s ‘I’m Not Funded by the CIA’ NYC exhibition at Ki Smith Gallery until June 24th. Then on July 15th I’m opening up for Raina Sokolov-Gonzalez at Public Records. It should be a sick time. I’m not exactly sure what I’m going to do but I know whatever she’s going to do will be amazing! But before, on the 18th of June I’m performing at EL Barrio’s Artspace PS109. It’s something my father’s non-profit put together celebrating black possibility. Come out if you’re in New York, or follow me on Twitch to see us wherever we are, doing whatever we’re doing, whenever we go live.