1: ANAJAH wears JACKET by PURE PLEASURES STUDIO, BRALETTE, TIGHTS, SHOES, and BELT are STYLIST'S OWN
2: TOP and PANTS by CONSCIOUSLY SHOP, BELT and RINGS are STYLIST'S OWN
What part of your being do the emotions of your music come from?
As a Libra, I struggle a lot with my mind and I think I really lead with my brain. I'm a cancer moon as well. I'm not really an emotional person, but when I write music, I feel like I can really open up and say exactly what I feel or what I actually mean because I don't express emotion to people. But when I write music, it definitely comes from a very sensitive, deep, visceral place that I don't allow most people to enter. I also tend to hide my deepest secrets there.
I struggle with impostor syndrome and chasing perfection and wanting more out of life, dejection, you know, and I think being an artist is being vulnerable and honest in front of people. But I also think having to put it into words, it's such a different experience than drawing or any other medium. I have to legitimately therapize myself in order to create and I write a lot from a place of self-doubt and searching for my worth.
What would you say is the difference between your creative and analytical mind?
Well, I think I'm big on compartmentalization. I love having things in boxes, but when I start to create, they kind of bleed into one another. It's like a school project where you're making a diagram. It has all these words and you're adding pictures. That's how I make music. I feel like one side of my brain is thinking about, ‘Okay, how is this gonna look? What color does this remind me of sonically?’ But also, ‘Does this make sense lyrically?’
It has to be both. If I try to separate them, it can be a little corny. I definitely blend both sides of my brain a lot when I make music, because it's not just about how it sounds, it also matters if it makes sense.
What do you think about most?
I guess how I'm perceived, which is so bad. Like it's just bad. It's terrible. I think in all honesty I feel like something that's always on my mind is how I'm being perceived if I'm around all my friends. I'm like, ‘Ok, am I being annoying or too silly?’ if I’m on a date. I'm like, ‘Oh my God, am I sending out the wrong signals?’
As a person, my brain never stops, but always draws back to being perceived, which also goes back to comparing myself to others and people see me. With that as my main thought, it's also about calming down and re-centering myself.