Your girlies often appear in scenes where innocence and danger, they're kind of sitting side by side. There's this tension. How did you develop this recurring image of the girlie in danger, and what does it let you explore about vulnerability, power, and survival right now?
The girlies came from the innocence of me drawing in my bedroom, to living it, and the dangerous situations that have come from the experiences, and seeing a lot of my girlfriends be used and abused by the system of men and power. I used to be such a club girl, and there were systems in place to put you in danger without you even realizing it. I'm very observant. I'm a Virgo. But I'm also like, “Am I feeding into the system by being there and being a voyeur to this?” But you're young. You're having fun. I never paid for a drink in a club, because they were using us for our youth. We were paying with our youth, our naïveté, our innocence, and then you become numb to crazy abuse around you. That's where the girlies were born. I feel like I'm a girlie, too. With my friends, we're a little team. We're gonna get our drinks, and then, of course, we're gonna encounter these predators, but we also benefit from it, swimming through the sea to get to your goal.
Do you think of your work as being political, and what ideas or experiences are you working through in these paintings?
I do feel like [my work is] a little political for sure. Growing up gay, I always was getting used for something. This girl came up to me and was like, "You should come to my church with me." She was trying to befriend me and convert me to be straight. And I thought, "Why is she trying to force me to be something that I don't even know what I am?" I'm finding myself out. I feel like a lot of these institutions and systems are predatory, even religion, so I draw a lot of religious aspects. I love God. God and I have a friendship. I shouldn't be defined by my sexuality. I struggled with that a lot. I would even pretend to like girls just to trick myself. A lot of these political systems, they raise you up, and then they're like, "Oh, we're gonna take away your rights." And you're like, "How are we going backwards in these systems? Who are these systems benefiting but the people in power that are probably getting money from it?"
Your work looks at power, desire, and ambition through these characters and settings that might seem a little fantastical. What parts of the real world do you feel is most absurd or disturbing right now?
It goes back to the rights of women. I think it's so crazy that these governments take away those rights. Certain states are taking [abortion] rights away, and I'm a person who believes that [you should] do what is best for your situation. I'm pro-choice. We shouldn't define people for their choices, so a lot of [my inspiration] is pulled from that. It bothers me when you don't have a choice. A lot of my pretty friends were really innocent, and they would go become sugar babies to these wolves and these people just to have a cute bag for the day. You sell your morals, but at what cost? I'm almost selling myself to be part of this system that isn't here to serve me unless I keep swimming through it to get to the other side. What I want is peace. I just want to live in upstate New York and be by myself or with my boyfriend and dogs and some calm, calm energy. There's always just a system that's here to screw you over, and you have to swim through.