Out of Love and its Violences
At this moment, you’re like a well-kept secret ready to make its grand entrance. How would you like to introduce yourself to the world?
Ideally, in a cloud of smoke, some thunder and lightning, and something tragic playing softly. I wouldn’t have anything specific to say, as long as my presence is felt.
Since you started out, how have you developed the style and themes within your work?
I have always been someone that has had an intense internal world. Fantasy has pushed me since the beginning, so it was only natural for my work to take its form. The process of getting to this point was just me focusing on specific feelings that caught my attention the most — currently using religion, romance, metaphysical, and familial ties as concepts.
Like many artists before you, you dropped out of school to pursue your craft exclusively. How has that been for you and your practice?
It’s gone well so far. In my opinion, a fundamental piece of being an artist is studying, so I don't feel like I’ve missed out on anything necessarily. The other artists I've met along the way became stand-in teachers just by being enthusiastic about their own work.
You recently had an art showing at a local art exhibit in Richmond, as well as having some of your artwork being sold; how was it having the public perceive you and your work?
It was very odd, honestly. Obviously, I am thankful for the opportunity and appreciative that people want to look at my work at all. It produces a weird feeling because I never intend to sell when starting a piece. However, watching people walk up to my paintings is extremely heartwarming. That moment is probably the most enjoyable part of being an artist — apart from creating the work of course.
Is there a specific goal you’re trying to accomplish with your work?
Maybe to appreciate the world around you. If you start to pay attention to the things around you I think you’d find a lot more is meant to cherish. I think my goal is first nostalgia and second romance. Something that tugs at the back of your mind. Like a baby photo of yourself. It looks nothing like you now, but you know it is you, so you cherish it.
In your works, you use a variety of materials to convey your message. How do you choose a certain type of media for each piece?
I often paint on bed sheets, pillowcases, and things of that nature. I think it brings a sense of comfort and familiarity to the work. To me, it feels overdone only to use canvas, so I align more with making art from found objects like discarded wood blocks and so forth. I guess I enjoy giving things a second chance. Other than fabrics, I don't really plan once I've started a piece. Recently though, I have been using oil pastels a lot more... I do whatever I can to get a feeling out. Mostly through my painting work, but I am interested in and play around with design and sonics often. They are kind of secret projects that I don't really share with anyone but my close friends.
Your work entails that you have a very complex relationship with religion, with a lot of your works giving nods toward biblical stories. Would you say religion has played an important role in your life? Is your art a reaction to your experience with faith?
Very much so. I don’t think religion will ever not be a part of my work. I personally am not a believer in anything specific. Religion, to me, is just something you are taught. I was raised to believe in something, so I can't really rewrite my brain now. Short answer: It’s complicated.
Two pieces that stuck out to me were “Cain” and “Abel,” which are clear references to the Old Testament story of that same name.
Cain was the first work of mine that held real emotion. I was dumping everything I had into that painting. He is very important to me. The work really set me on the path I'm on now. Cain was just all negativity, it was everything bad I was feeling at the time towards my friends and family members. And then Abel came after that, and that was just the regret I was feeling to the people I was supposed to be loving towards.
In many of your pieces, your figures look perturbed or afflicted. What kind of emotions are they a reflection of?
I don't know if they are afflicted with anything but heartache. Most of my work revolves around love as a concept. Perhaps my perception is a little more melancholic than normal.
What was the last movie you watched that reinforced your view on love or otherwise tore it down?
Everything I experience reinforces love. I’ll find love in anything. That being said, there's this one scene from a movie called Super Dark Times where the main antagonist kills his best friend. The best friend's reaction is really what catches my attention, though. Instead of fighting back and trying to save himself, he mumbles “I love you” before the person closest to him takes his life. This particular scene just stuck with me ever since I first saw it. Not sure if it’s necessarily moving me towards a greater or lesser view on love or even romance.
Relationships seem to be a driving force in your work. There is this air to some of your pieces that scream “obsession.” Is there a couple out there that you admire?
Recently Yoko Ono and her relationship with John Lennon. I like them together. It seems like gravity between them. Choosing to be together even if others disagree. They complemented each other perfectly. It was like this beautiful, twisted marriage, where John moved over to making artworks and movies while Yoko Ono took over his role and started creating experimental music... But I don’t care about The Beatles.